Mirror, Mirror

A list of all the attributes I'm working on hangs on the wall; it's titled, "The Woman I Want to Be". But my walls are so cluttered with artwork, photos, aphorisms and commandments. There is something to the axiom, "live simply and love generously".

"Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions." - Dalai Lama



The victory lap of my undergrad years wasn't as epic as I thought it would be but it's just what I needed. "Tuum est" never seemed to resound more loudly to me than this year. I can finally call this place my 'home away from home'. I've made a niche for myself and change comes sweeping through like the wind. Some days I'm overcome with nervousness and anxiety of graduating. The prospect of being in the world, finding a job and then a career is frightening to say the least. This last term has been a bitter-sweet reflection of my undergrad life.

What I've been yearning for is that peace that comes with stillness and solitude though. As sad as it is for me to graduate, I need this. I think I've needed this time to myself for a long time but didn't have the opportunity to take it. Vancouver has been my beloved home my entire life but I need to be elsewhere; my soul tells me so.